The Year of Loving
by Traci L. Slatton
Genre: Contemporary Women's Fiction
Art gallerist Sarah Paige’s world is crumbling. One daughter barely speaks to her and the other is off the rails. Sarah is struggling to keep her gallery afloat in a tough market when she learns that her most beloved friend has cancer. In the midst of her second divorce, two men come into her life: an older man who offers companionship and stability and an exciting younger man whose life is as chaotic as hers.
Sarah’s courage, humor, and spirit strengthen her, but how much can she bear, and what sustains her when all else falls away?
IN THE BEGINNING, THERE was my bohemian poet mom and square
attorney dad, who met at a concert and shared only three interests in
common: rock and roll, Renaissance art, and me, Sarah Melissa Paige,
conceived in the backseat of a Chevy Impala to the strains of Deep Purple.
How do I know this? My Jewish mom never had a clear sense of
boundaries. She would say the most outrageous things, not just to me but
to anyone, at any time. “Sarah was a vaginal birth and I nursed her until
she was eleven months old,” she would tell a store clerk, while I winced.
It was one of her lovable quirks. That’s what my Scotch-Irish/Cherokee
dad would say, with a small smile.
I still miss them every day. Their death was one of the great losses of
my life. Painter Frida Kahlo, my soul sister because of her mixed heritage
and her devotion to art, had remarked, “There were two great accidents in
my life. One was the trolley and the other was Diego. Diego was by far
the worst.” Sometimes I felt that way about the two great catastrophes of
my life: my parents’ deaths and my marriage to my first husband George
Calhoun, the rich WASP with the perpetual sneer of condescension.
George would never forgive me for the humiliation of my leaving him for
an impecunious artist.
But let’s move past George. Let’s go to the end of my second
marriage, to the realist painter Clifton.
I was in my gallery in Chelsea, working on an article for American Artist
magazine. I was trying to explain why excellence, beauty, and the artist’s
skill were more important than the overvalued and empty wasteland of
post-modernism. You can see I’m a woman with strong opinions.
Rosa, my assistant, came in from the front room.
“Sarah, you hear the printer?” she asked, pausing to check her
makeup in the reflection of a glass frame. She dabbed at her mascara with
her pinky. “A fax came in.”
“Something from Clif’s lawyer. Or George with a snotty note about
not being able to reach me via email,” I guessed, in an absent tone.
“Nothing I want to see.” Will Michelangelo’s Doni Tondo illustrate my
point about the supreme rapture of the human form? I smiled at her.
She sparkled back. “Weren’t you waiting for something?”
“Alex’s meds,” I remembered. I pushed back from my desk and
hurried over to the printer, where a prescription lay in the out box.
“Want me to run it in?” Rosa asked.
“I’ll go,” I answered. I had been writing for two hours, and it was a
cold, drizzly day with no foot traffic, so no customers to come in and
peruse the beautiful representational paintings I sold. April is the cruelest
month. So, on the flimsiest of whims, without bothering to shrug on my
coat, I headed out into my life.
The pharmacy was located only a block up on Eighth Avenue. I
banged into the door with my umbrella. A gust of wind caught me just at
that moment and blew the umbrella inside out and I tumbled through the
door askew, my umbrella struggling like a trapped animal and my Jimmy
Choos sliding out from under me as if I’d skidded on a candy bar wrapper.
‘Cartwheel’ would be an accurate description. Which explains why
my linen skirt was up around my waist like a belt.
“Now that’s an entrance,” a man said, his deep voice amused. He bent
down and offered his hand. I fought my linen skirt down to cover
everything that was on display. It’s not like I wear shorts over my thongs
--which had twisted up inside my lady parts. Leaving everything on
display. I groaned. He cleared his throat. “Don’t worry, I’m a doctor.”
“You’re not my doctor,” I said, furiously, batting his hand away. I
managed to scramble to my knees and yank my skirt to a more appropriate
semblance of coverage. What is it about linen? It goes out of its way to be
uncooperative. I have a theory that clothing designers have a hidden
agenda to torture women. Of course, it served me right for wearing linen
in April. I just loved the navy blue, forties’ era suit I’d found in a
consignment shop on Greenwich Avenue. Note to self: check out usability standards before purchasing vintage clothes.
That blasted umbrella was determined to thwart my efforts, so I
dropped it and pulled myself up via the shelves of cough suppressants and
“Glad that’s so,” the man murmured.
Was he still ogling me? I didn’t answer because I’d managed to sweep
the display of Robitussin onto the ground. I bent over to pick them up.
“Ahem,” the man said, and his rich voice thickened with the effort not
to laugh. I glanced and he was pointing.
At my behind.
The back of my skirt was still bunched up around my waist. I’d stuck
my ass in his face.
I grasped my skirt by both sides and jerked downward as hard as I
could. The waist button popped off. Luckily the zipper stayed firmly
sealed, or everything I have would have been revealed. Again.
The man laughed outright.
I held the skirt closed with one hand while I shook the other index
finger accusingly in his face. “Listen, you!” I started, accusingly.
He blinked, bemused and amused. He was tall and toned, with fine,
poreless skin, cropped black hair, and the kind of substantial nose that
certain men carry off very well indeed.
It struck me how silly I looked. I broke up with laughter.
After a few seconds, he took off his glasses, rubbed the bridge of his
nose, and blinked a few times, laughing with me. “It’s not often you find a
beautiful woman who can laugh at herself.”
“Yeah, well, if I couldn’t, I’d have been in big trouble a long time
ago,” I murmured. He had nice dark eyes. There weren’t enough crow’s
feet or the lines of laughter and sadness that reflect the gravity of a life
fully lived to put him in his forties. I smiled. “Thanks for the
For a moment, the most delicious, open softness encompassed us. We
smiled at each other a little sheepishly.
Then I remembered why I was there. A new prescription for my
younger daughter Alexandra. Maybe this one would be the magic bullet
that kept her from shooting herself in the foot. I desperately wanted it to
be, and I could only pray that it was, as I’d been praying for the last few
years, watching Alex get herself tangled up with one bad decision after
another and get herself thrown out of two schools. She was now at Devon
Town, the private school of absolute last resort in Manhattan. If she could
graduate, she could still attend a decent college.
I shrugged and waved to the hot man who was at least ten years
younger than me and I walked back to the pharmacist. I handed him the
Katsu, the pharmacist, an old Japanese guy who came to every show
at my gallery for the free food and drinks, shuffled unblinkingly off to the
back as if he’d never seen me before in his life.
“Excuse me, miss.” It was the hot man, looking carefully at my left
hand, where I wasn’t wearing a ring.
I perked up.
The skin stretching across the cheekbones of his angular face
deepened in color. He cleared his throat. “Would you like to get a cup of
“Sure,” said Katsu, who had returned. “Venti half-caf cappuccino, wet
and fat-free. Would you get me a scone, too?”
“Not you,” the young doctor said.
Katsu shrugged and then looked at me. “I have it in stock. Come back
in an hour.” He turned back to the doctor. “Hey, doc, just coffee, or will
you buy me dinner, too?”
The doctor grimaced and followed me as I walked toward the front of
the store. He touched my elbow lightly as I reached for the door. “About
that cup of coffee?”
I straightened myself, which was hard to do with one hand, because
the other hand was still gripping the waistband of my skirt, to keep it
closed. “You don’t have to buy me coffee just because I stuck my ass in
He looked embarrassed and I noted again how smooth and silken his
skin was. I remembered being 38. From the vantage point of 48, it seemed
innocent and hopeful.
He said, “This is not about your ass.”
“You don’t like my ass?”
He flushed and looked about twelve years old. “Your ass is very nice.
That’s my professional opinion.”
“You think I’m a professional?” I demanded, in a tone of outrage.
He flushed a brighter shade of red. “Coffee. Just a cup of coffee.”
“You’re sweet.” I sighed while I smiled. I had baggage older than he
was, and I’m not talking about the dinged-up Tumi cases I take to Europe
on scouting trips.
He had straightened his back and shoulders and was listening hard--
the antennae were practically standing straight up atop his head.
“It’s flattering, but I don’t think so. Thank you anyway.”
A few minutes later, torn and bedraggled, I stood in the door of my
Rosa glided over to me. She’s of Mexican and Finnish descent, an
actress and a dancer with cascades of black hair and striking pale blue
eyes. She’s fresh and juicy and sassy. I was newly aware of every wrinkle
on my face and every dimple on the back of my thigh. With her lissome
dancer’s body and face still unlined in her late twenties, Rosa was a better
fit for Dr. Gorgeous than I could ever be. What the hell was he thinking,
asking me out for coffee?
“Why are you staring at me?” Rosa demanded. She narrowed her big
vivid eyes at me. “What happened to your skirt?”
“My umbrella,” I muttered.
“OK, don’t tell me.”
“I tripped over my umbrella,” I amended, not knowing that was when
I woke up in a dark woods in the middle of the journey of my life. There’s
a flux to the divine comedy of life, the way it empties out, grows full, and
then cracks to empty out again, so that fullness can be reborn. I still don’t
know if my heart can stretch to encompass all the shattering. But, in that
moment, I was just thinking that I should have accepted that cup of coffee.
I think I would have enjoyed it.
“Strip it off, Mamacita, my sewing kit is in my purse and there’s
twenty minutes before I leave for my audition.” She waggled her fingers
“I’ll take it off in the back office,” I said. I was still clutching the skirt
to keep it closed properly. “I’ve been naked in public enough for one day.
And thank you.”
Traci L. Slatton is the international bestselling author of historical, paranormal, and romantic novels, including IMMORTAL (BantamDell) and BROKEN; the award-winning dystopian After Series which includes FALLEN, COLD LIGHT, FAR SHORE and BLOOD SKY; the bittersweet romantic comedy THE LOVE OF MY (OTHER) LIFE; and the vampire art history romp THE BOTTICELLI AFFAIR. She has also published the lyrical poetry collection DANCING IN THE TABERNACLE and THE ART OF LIFE, a photo-essay about figurative sculpture through the ages. Her book PIERCING TIME & SPACE explores the meeting ground of science and spirituality. Her latest novel THE YEAR OF LOVING follows an art gallerist through a steamy love triangle and a challenging year of love and travail. This story seeks to answer the question, What sustains you when all else falls apart?